14.6.03

went looking through my blog archives, and I think the idiots lost about two month's worth of my files. Not that it really matters, but I do like to go back and look at what I was thinking/feeling back in those times, and remember what was happening. It's good to see how I was dealing with the major issues in my life, and to see if they were really that major since I now know the outcome. Helps me to put things in perspective once in a while.
On second thought, I should not have called the blogger people idiots. They'll probably render my blog inaccessible.
Last night really did go well, for all of you who might care. I mean, I'm not usually exposed to that kind of scene, so as far as I can tell.. it was okay. I just can't see doing that kind of stuff every night though. Once in a while is fine, but wow. I need my down time. And when I think about it, it's only fun because it's 1. a change of pace and 2. kinda "bad girl"-esque. It's that mix of something different and something risky that produces the fun. Doing it more often only takes away from those qualities, thus ruining the fun. Am I overanalyzing this? Survey says: yes.
Done with high school. I don't even want to talk about it yet, just because right now it doesn't seem momentous. Just seems like I've completed some big nasty chore and I'm glad to be washing my hands clean of it. Maybe at graduation I'll start feeling the love more. Being sad at the thought of being parted from my classmates, and such.

my oh my you know it just don't stop
it's in my mind I wanna tear it up
trying to fight it trying to turn it off
but it's not enough
it takes a lot of love it takes a lot of love my friend
to keep your heart from freezing
to push on to the end


David Grey - My Oh My

13.6.03

IB campout last night. Seriously funny stuff. I had a good time, and other people did too, I thought. I'm going to go take a nap in a bit.
We are done with high school. What a relief. AWESOME.
Gotta go now, but I guess I'll blog some more later.

won't you look down upon me jesus
you gotta help me make a stand
just gotta see me through another day
my body's aching and my time is at hand
I won't make it any other way

I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
but I always thought that I'd see you again


James Taylor - Fire and Rain