20.5.04

so i'm sitting in class, pretending to listen to my english TA. usually when I am bored in class, i take out a piece of paper and write letters to my friends, and sometimes I write stuff that I will later post to my blog... that's where this crazy poetry is coming from. but today i'm lucky - we've got the computer lab so we can learn how to do research. Thanks IB, for already teaching me all of this so i could use this time to enter this valuable blog post. :P

woke up at 8:15 today for my 8:30 chem exam which is about a 15 minute leisurious walk. so once I left my dorm at 8:20, I was scrurrying/running/walking very, very quickly to get to Bagley in time. got there with one minute to spare... felt pretty confident taking it. it was pretty much what I expected. so, yay. of course, i'll prolly get it back and find out it kicked my butt. C'est la vie.

you know what's cool about Xanga? they let you give e-props. I'd like that... some feedback on my blog. oh WAIT, that's what that flooble chatterbox was for, and we all know how that turned out.

well, since the chem midterm is over, i can finally relax. Go to the IMA today, go celebrate the Tajikistani's birthday by going to see Troy with her and the floor, go to acapella rehearsal and have fun. much excited. i could start right now if it weren't for that pesky class thing. psssh. anyway.

oh yeah, and I saw RENT Tuesday night in Tacoma! it was AWESOME. i was soooo excited. i went with a bunch of people who hadn't seen it or heard the music, so afterwards in the car i felt like I was babbling when I kept saying things like "Mimi was really powerful when she sang 'Out Tonight'" and people would respond with "was she the one with the blue pants?" haha. oh well. we also had horrible seats, but you can't expect a whole lot when you buy the cheapest tickets. The guy who sat next to me in during the show was from Central Washington University, and he was seeing RENT for the 6th time. He was dressed up like Mark, and we discussed how Joanne and Roger were poorly cast, Joanne because she wasn't butch enough, and Roger because his hair was too long. But then, Roger could have cut his hair, and that would probably have been okay, because he had a good voice. Aaaaanyway. Next time, i'm taking my brother the second.

You look familar
Like your ex-girlfriend
Only when you smile but I'm sure I've seen you somewhere else
Do you go to the Cat-Scratch club
That's where I work, I dance. Help me look!
Yes! They used to tie you up...
It's a living.
I didn't recognize you without the handcuffs...
We could light the candle
Oh won't you light my candle?


Light the Candle - RENT
(Roger's lines are bold/italic; Mimi's are italic)

18.5.04

Wagner's "Tannhaeuser" is playing over and over in my mind - it keeps coming up as background music in these crazy German films I keep seeing for my various German classes.
Speaking of German. What the heck do I think I'm going to be able to do with it? Ideally I'd minor in it, maybe even get a second major. But with honors, premed reqs, and last but not least a major in biology... I don't think I'll possibly have time for German. Future, looming so close on the horizon. What am I going to do next summer? This summer I'm going to Germany for 2 months, and then working at Dad's office again. but next summer... what to do, what to do.
options:
1. live at home, work at dad's office. Go camping/hiking as much as possible. When autumn rolls around, find a house and make a bunch of friends move into it with you.
2. find a place in Seattle to live for summer and junior year. Take a class over summer (maybe just A or B term), and work in the city.

tough decision, eh?
from Roethke's "The Far Field"

I learned not to fear infinity,
The far field, the windy cliffs of forever,
The dying of time in the white light of tomorrow,
The wheel turning away from itself,
The sprawl of the wave,
The on-coming water.

17.5.04

I am just so cool
I do all of my blogging
inside of one day.
Every Action

Has a consequence.
I did not know she was watching
when I finally followed
what cannot be called an impulse
-it had been long planned-
and kissed him.
I did not know
how much it would hurt
when I told them I was leaving-
I imagined my pain as sharp but fleeting,
ignoring the fact that theirs would be as a dull ache,
throbbing before
Every thunderstorm.

Watching a fire burn
seeing a tree torn down
observing the pavement strewn
with broken glass from a shattered window.
All these-
irreversible processes?
I can acquire more paper,
plant another tree
collect the glass pieces
and forge them into a new whole.
Easy! to fix!
I can tell her I didn't mean it
Tell them I'll be back to visit soon.
Simple. Einfach.
There is no need to fear
die Folgen
A touch of diplomatic glue
Should fix the problem
patch the hole
make things right again
Sein Grossvater war einer von denen.
Dran hab' ich nie vorher gedacht.
Stimmt war er ein Deutscher.
-nein, romanisch-
jedenfalls stimmte er mit
dem dritten Reich ein.
(und hat in der Luftwaffe
mitgeteilt.)
Was bedeutet das denn?
Wir sind alle Menschen.
Wir haben
dieselben Sorgen
dieselben Freude
(ich lachele drueber)
Und jetzt
gibt's die Futur. In diesem Moment.
In keinem Anderen.
Deshalb ist es egal, oder?
Dass er ein Nazi war.
Wenn man wirklich drueber denkt,
findet man
jedes Land ist ein Reich.
das dritte?
das vierte?
das einundzwanstige?
Wir kuemmern uns hauptsachlich um uns selbst
nicht um die Andere.
Die vereinigen Staaten-
was fuer ein vollkommenes Beispiel!
Dann weisst man
wie es ziemlich heisst:
Die amerikanicshes Heuchelei!
Aaah! RF! Where'd your linky bits go??!?!?
WHOA.

whoa whoa whoa.

somehow Blogger changed the ENTIRE USER INTERFACE when I wasn't looking. Or something like that. I guess I've been away for quite some time.

Went camping this weekend with some CRAZY cats. I mean it. It was a blast... we played flashlight tag-like games until the wee hours of the morning, crawling about in the sand dunes at Twin Harbors campgrounds near Westport. Good times. and since we had to drive through O-Town to get there, I had the first chance all quarter to drop in on my family and see how they were doing. didn't get to see the sister, though - she is so busy nowadays, what with volleyball and her friends and such. Reminds me of myself when I was that age....

I should be working on an English reading response right now, but instead I've been distracted by this little gem we like to call UW Facebook. Check it out, all you UWers out there.. I suggest you sign up and request me as your friend, because it's quite fun once you get going.

I don't like this new interface. I really don't. bleh.

aight, over and out.