she was in my dreams again last night.

we hugged for a while. I looked up at her with tear-blurred vision and asked her where she had been for 8 and a half years. She said she had been in Kent.

I told her that was ridiculous, and shot an unsure glance at my dad, who was standing close by. He was beaming at her, fixated, and didn't seem to notice I had said a word. Dad always said you were in heaven.

That's ridiculous, she said, laughing. Once you go to heaven, you never leave. And I'm here. How could you even begin to explain that, honey?


You Are 26 Years Old


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

A sermon that my roommate was playing today on the Internet was outlining the things that please and displease God. He mentioned as one of his points that God does not hate things about humans that are out of their realm of control. God hates neither baldness or hair; He expresses no preference in eye, hair or skin color; He accepts people of all height, width, and length. We can take this to mean that anything God gave us at birth (i.e.anything genetic) does not make any one person more favorable in His eyes than any of the rest of us. It's our choices alone that can please or displease God.

What does this mean for people with a genetic disposition to kleptomania? Pedophilism? Murder? Do they have a smaller chance percentage-wise of being loved by God? Are these people really making a choice, or just being propelled by pre-determined genetic impulse?

And if you don't believe any of those are genetic dispositions, think about the case of homosexuality. Clearly, God does not favor this. But research has shown that this trait can be passed on in a lineage. Does this imply that those who are prone to being gay have a higher chance of being shunned by God only because of what He gave them in the first place?

Just a thought.