8.8.03

um, I miss my old blog. Not that I want it back.. I think it was too girly for my liking. Much better on this new template. But still, the nostalgia.

Brother the first is not home yet and I am worrying. He has the car. Not good.

hmm, well, have been thinking about a conversation that apparently I never had. indeed it does seem like something of a dream. I feel that it may have been embarrassing to the other conversationalist... I just hope this person knows that the subject was approached in an almost tactful manner, kinda like asking for permission first, and that is admirable. Also helped me come to a decision that I may not have made had I not had said conversation. Which is good. And so you see, all things happen for a reason.

Very excited for a hiking trip this weekend, seeing as how I've never ever been on one. Really surprised at Dad's lax attitude towards all of this.. a year ago I would never be allowed to hike the weekend away. he really doesn't care where I am or what time I'm home, for the most part. Can you imagine... this is what college will be like, but better. But also with less spending money.

I agree with what the 19 year old had to say in her livejournal. I'm not ready to part ways with many of my good friends. Why must this happen?

but as I said, everything happens for a reason.

And it's true.

I want bones like iron
and blood like mercury
so I can tell you when I'm rising
when I'm sinking in


dispatch - two coins

6.8.03

The solution to aforementioned problem boiled down to a two-minute cell phone conversation, with the person on other end around ears and thus saying nothing to avoid saying something incriminating. I fear that this solution is only temporary and not even that good. Funny that it was created to maintain both the status quo and my happiness factor. Just by the fact that I know I shouldn't be taking this course of action is obliterating that second goal. Sure, it might suffice these next few weeks, but what about long term?

Apart from that, swing dancing last night was a blast, and I saw some people I definitely was not expecting to see, as well as a few regulars with whom I was looking forward to catching up.

Lunch break is ending, and back to work I must go.