yes. well....

at home for less than 24 hours. nice to see the sibs and visit father darling. I feel bad though... for the evening's entertainment I picked out the winner movie "About Schmidt", and by "winner movie" I mean "horrible, horrible example of an utter cinematic failure". Actually, I didn't mind it - I thought it was poignant and accurately portrayed some of life's insecurities and realities. But it was a little too real for Dad, I think... an old man whose wife passes away, and he grows increasingly lost and bitter. Plus, at the daughter's wedding in the film, they played "Longer Than", a song that my parents sang to each other at their own wedding. Just a little too close to home, I think.

Tomorrow is a busy day, full of working out with Manzinita, followed by haircuts for both of us, and then visiting Herr J before heading back to Seattle for acapella rehearsal. Fantastic. So why am I still up at 2 when I need to be up at 8 tomorrow? Good question. Going to bed now.

Spend your nights here
We'll always be up late
Keep each other on
Chemicals can make us stay
I meant you're outta line
With your friends and all your jokes
Moving out tonight
Making phones that hot to hold

And you really didn't know
And you really didn't know

Spend your days here
And never give up now
You keep the children down
You're down for one more hour
Imagine I would feel
If your friends were all your dates
I'm moving out with her
Do you shake? you'll be ok

And if you really didn't know
I swear I really didn't know
So I'm sorry, so sorry

Howie Day - Sorry, So Sorry

Warm and fuzzy. I suppose that's not unlike Jack's colon.

Chem midterm turned out to be unsurprisingly miserable. Luckily it was that way for everybody except the one genius that got a 95%, and whom we should all throw into Lake Washington. Repeatedly. Without clothing. At least my mediocre score has renewed my interest in the daily studying I need to do to succeed... probably won't last very long, but needs to happen.

Recently received headphones as a gracious gift from Manzinita (they were her backup pair). It's been great- I can go to the library, and while I'm sitting and doing whatever (emailing, reviewing chem lectures, etc.) I can listen to classical on www.cpr.org. I recommend this for anyone who studies well with classical music - it's almost nonstop except for an short hourly news update and occasional snippets of background info, from what I've heard so far, and it's fantastic music. the little history summaries are actually quite amusing. good stuff. makes me miss being in orchestra.

Loving it here in good ol' Seattle. People say that Winter quarter is the worst, but so far it's flying by, and I'm having a good time (not counting the chem midterm). Haven't been off-campus as much as I was last quarter, but there are some concerts coming up (Maroon 5 and Howie Day) which will certainly be adventerous. I also may be going shopping today at Bell Square for shoes and potentially a much-needed hair cut, so that will get me out of the dorms. Computer is still broken - they're telling me now that something was spilled on it? I most certainly did not do that. At least I think I didn't. I'd know, wouldn't I? You'd think so.

How do people manage to not call my cell phone for days, and then everybody calls it at once? kinda weird. had a fun conversation triangle with 3 other people (i guess that would elevate its geometric status to a rectangle), where Jihad called while I was talking online to his roommate, and as they needed to discuss plans, they conversed vicariously through me for a bit. and then as he was walking across campus, he passed Samir, to whom he immediately gave his phone. Nice to talk to Samir - it's been quite a while (since winter break), and although our phone convo was short, it spurred an email from me, so that's good.

alright, it's a Friday, and I've been studying chem for the last hour, plus I have a friend coming over soon. Time to go out and have some fun.

but with you I belong
would you help me be strong
there's been a change in my life
since you came along

I think it's funny that I can make stupid, pointless little comments like the post I made last night, and unlike real life, people care. Or at least I pretend they do. That's the fun thing about this blog business - it makes me feel like I am the warm little center of the universe. Doesn't matter what the reality might be.

I have a paper due and a chem midterm in the next 24 hours. gotta run.

I am Jack's complete lack of surprise.

you know what I hate? new jeans that turn your hands blue. This is my second pair of those types of jeans. you'd think i'd be able to earmark those particular types by now. pah.

whoa! problems with this website? stupid alert popups.

it's so frustrating to use everyone else's computers all of the time. They crash, they don't support certain programs, they have restrictions and limitations. Man.

Seen on an away message: "I bet you wish you were my homework, because then you'd be long and hard and I'd be doing you all night long."

Haha. Wish I'd thought of that.

Must be getting home. I'm tired, I have homework to do, I skipped acapella rehearsal to sleep, and now I"m wasting time. Must go back.

g'nite.

something feels wrong about going to the library to blog. I mean, i'm definitely not using this resource for school purposes (although I will be doing so in a moment; big lab write-up due tomorrow and I need to put some finishing touches on it).

School, school school. I feel like I'm going so much more this quarter, working harder and such, yet I also feel perpetually behind. Catching up is hard.

Howie Day is playing in Seattle next month, and nevermind the fact that I can't find anyone to go with me - there aren't many people who even know who Howie Day IS. Dar. Anybody from O-Town wanna come up and go with me? My friend from down the hall is expressing similar complaints about how he can't find anyone to go with him to the Cannibal Corpse show. That I can understand.

Wow, I for surely need to get off campus... I've been to the Seattle Center a few times since I've been back up here, but I want to go downtown and DO something. I'll have to go to the Moore to get tickets for the Howie Day concert, but other than that, nothing is scheduled.

Hokay, lab write-up time, and then lunch with JFrey, and then a few more hours til I meet with one of my professors, and then a panel on careers in foreign languages (Career Discovery Week is this week), and then dinner, then acapella rehearsal. Always on the move.

peace out.

life is a lot different without a computer. I feel so much less connected now that I cannot see what everybody else is doing (people who are online, that is). But I am also more productive - I get to my room and find there is nothing to do but homework. And knitting. So I go to the library or Ian's Domain a lot more, and I get way more done. So this is good. Really.

....

I WANT MY LAPTOP BACK!

perhaps I like this one better:



okay, i really am going to bed now.

"I am a consumer whore." "And how!"

lab today was long and tedious. I like my new lab partner but am slowly starting to loathe my new TA. ah well, that's how it goes. Do I have lecture tomorrow? i'm not sure. if I do, i'd better get to sleep. and if I don't, I should sleep anyway, cuz I have German at 10:30. dar.

i wish i had more energy to blog, because i have fun things to say. kinda. well, at any rate, i'm going to sleep. night-o.

your faith was strong but you needed proof
you saw her bathing on the roof
her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
she tied you to a kitchen chair
she broke your throne, she cut your hair
and from your lips she drew
the hallelujah...

Rufus Wainwright - Hallelujah

oh wow.

I've forgotten what it is to be close to God. Will somebody remind me?

Honestly, now. How can everybody in the world be close to God? There's so many of us, and only one of Him. But He definitely has the power. If He created the universe, don't you think that He would have set it up so that a relationship with Him is vital to your soul's existence? But why does He want to have a relationship with me? Lowly, insignificant me? He created me; He already knows everything there is to know about me, from my most honorable moment to my darkest of sins. What else can he possibly want? And if that is indeed what he wants, what the HECK am I doing putzing around and wasting my time?

This is bothering me, and undoubtedly the other people around me too, because I've been pestering them about their beliefs.

too much thought for tonight. Need to chill out.

"don't be too influenced by other people, but if you feel that you should go back to religion, then do it."

the river of doubt gave birth to a beautiful stone
and in my hand i held it
and i knew i was on my own
so i picked it up
and i held it to the sky
and in my reflection i knew i was all alone
then i saw this girl with the most beautiful hair
she had it wrapped around her
for clothes she did not wear
i asked her for a lock, and she complied
after leaving gorgeous footsteps in the sand
as if she didn't care...

Dispatch - Flying Horses

they're going to take away my Flooble Chatterbox if no one posts in it. oh well, I think its time is up anyway. stupid popups.

i was SO TIRED during both of my classes today. I need to get on top of things, seriously, and not stay up so late at night. bad me.

lunch time, gotta leave soon.

i want you, i need you
there ain't no way i'm ever gonna love you
now don't be sad
two out of three ain't bad

you sing it Meatloaf

our current terror alert level:



HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

[taken from www.geekandproud.net/terror]

here's to blogging in the new year! for me and for my blogging buddies. you know who you are.

i've kinda been slacking on this page and I feel it's time to play catch-up with my life as it is at this moment.

first off: evaluation of my first quarter at college. ... it was good. no, really. i mean, at first i complained a lot, but really, it was just me adjusting. now that i'm back in o-town, i'm really excited to get back to my life in seattle. i miss my friends down my hall, the ones I was just starting to get close to during finals week. i miss my roommates (ShortOne more than SpongeBob, granted, but what can you do). i miss visiting south campus and eating soft serve and late-night cafeteria food, and watching south park and sealab 2021 on laptops, and being eternally online, and bubble tea runs, and German class, and Briazz New York Roma sandwiches, and Buffalo Exchange, and the bus system, and coffee and snacks on my meal card, and and and. i'm excited for next quarter classes, which are more of the same, really (German, Chemistry, Honors and a seminar), but i feel more capable of handling them now, (though 1st quarter grades were surprisingly decent. plus my chem class is no longer at 5:30 at night, so i'll attend more often, and the prof will be better - there is no other way because the last prof was the dumbest person i've ever met, I tell you no lies. i'm glad to be rid of my first honors class, though - man that lady was boring.)

but leaving oly again has certain complications - no car at school, for one. and i leave my friends behind, though not really because they're all off to college too, for the most part.

more to follow.

just got back from Vancouver, WA. Good times had by all, even though sometime during the 12-hour fest it began to snow, so people couldn't leave, and the people who were trying to show up got stuck on the roads. lots of junk/fast food eaten due to being in a hurry and not wanting to cook. bleh.

I should go to the office and put in a few hours... they need a receptionist. alright, step one: finding nice clothes to wear. (I left most of mine at college.)

old man river said
"you can go your own way
if you just leave him alone"
do not deliver all your things today
we are going home
oh by the way now so hungry
I got bats in the belfry
I'm in the kitchen, boiling society
I'm in the open catching all the leaves
we all see what we want

Dispatch - Bats in the Belfry