another reason to go to USC: the acapella is better. however, I did talk to my small group director today, and he's heard a lot of the BOCA stuff, and wants to do more pop stuff (if not all pop stuff). plus, small group is significantly better than the large group. So. yeah. there's hope.

know what's fun? late-night prank calls using sound boards. we haggett people are such dorks. :)

k, well, I've successfully stayed up until after 1 AM for the third night in a row now. I really need to break this cycle - if I keep it up I'll get sick again. my roommate said I'd probably get pnemonia. Sounds accurate to me.

although she's none the wiser
although we've barely met
i can recognize her
from the treatment that I get
so it's my duty to advise her
if she breaks the rules i've set up
although I'll admit it hasn't happened yet
i believe she's lying
i trust her to undermine my faith in her in time
i have every confidence that she'll dismantle mine
given time
as sure as she is sitting here
she's sure that she's awake
as soon as we're committing
we're admitting our mistakes
so of course it's only fitting
that the course we're going to take
is drawn and we're apart and slamming on the brakes
i believe she's lying
i trust her to undermine my faith in her in time
i have every confidence that she'll dismantle mine
given time
that's a given
given time

haha! I got away with TWO audio posts! you guys , if and when you call it, keep pushing "1" and get more posts! this is good fun.

yeah. Thanksgiving. I was happy to be with family and friends. At the same time, I now realize I could never spend an entire summer in Oly anymore, unless I'm working. It's too much.

Weird. That's how I feel.

turn down the lights, turn down the bed
turn down these voices inside my head
lay down with me, tell me no lies
just hold me close, don’t patronize
don’t patronize me
‘cause i can’t make you love me if you don’t
you can’t make your heart feel something it won’t
here in the dark, in these final hours
i will lay down my heart and i feel the power
but you won’t, no you won’t
‘cause I can’t make you love me if you don’t

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please, PLEASE open up new A sections for Chemistry 152. PLEASE.

I'm hoping home will allow me to get some good sleep. Ah, home... I love you.

close your eyes
and take your last breath
rest your head and sigh
the end is the beginning
and everyone between
some lost, some lost
and you won't feel a thing
and you won't recall
anything at all

Howie Day - Perfect Time of Day

You wouldn't believe the bags under my eyes. Really, they're like their own entity or something.... like frickin' rings on a planet. My cold won't let me sleep at night... one evening it'll be a stuffy nose causing my misery, and then the next night I'll be hopped up on Sudafed and it's my cough that's preventing me from attaining sweet oblivion. It won't go away - it just likes to change up the symptoms so it's not just the same old crap every night. How thoughtful.

Cannot wait to get home and see my family and friends. I visited some new buddies over in Bremerton this weekend, and I loved the feeling of being at home. Car rides instead of long walks in the cold. Homes instead of dorm rooms. Denny's instead of late-night chicken strips and fries at T-Caf. It was a nice break. O-Town will feel 100 times better, but Bremerton was a nice appetizer.

Three days. Until then, I have stuff to do (German paper due in a little over an hour). Gotta get to work. Later dudes.

(no music right now - there will be time later)

reasons why I should have gone to USC:

1. my football team wouldn't suck
2. i'd die slowly of pollution rather than continuous colds, which sounds like a better way to go out
3. maybe I'd get shot in one of the nearby 'hoods and the misery would end sooner
4. I bet their registration doesn't suck and they offer CLASSES that people NEED
5. the weather, while being monotonous, would be warm at least
6. i'd be away from annoying high school drama
7. i'd live in honors dorms, with people i know how to socialize with
8. I could wear less clothes, which means less laundry to do
9. two words: private school
10. the grass is always greener. I guess that's the bottom line.

reluctantly crouched at the starting line
engines pumping and thumping in time
the green light flashes, the flags go up
churning and burning, they yearn for the cup
they deftly manuver and muscle for rank
fuel burning fast on an empty tank
reckless and wild, they pour through the turns
the ? is potent and secretly stern
as they speed through the finish, the flags go down
the fans get up and they get out of town
the arena is empty except for one man
still driving and striving as fast as he can
the sun has gone down and the moon has gone up
and long ago somebody left with the cup
but he's driving and striving and hugging the turns
and thinking of someone for whom he still burns
he's going the distance, he's going for speed
she's all alone in a time of need
because he's racing and pacing and plotting the course
he's fighting and biting and riding on his horse
he's going the distance

Cake - The Distance

guess what?

REGISTRATION SUCKS!!!

There are NO English classes open. This means I am probably going to take German for another quarter, which isn't a bad thing, it's just that I really need to take English comp. Also, there are only evening chem classes available. That REALLY sucks, bigtime.

Ah well, next quarter. It'll be great. I'll be registering as a sophomore, so I'll beat out all those freshman fools. Yay.

cuz I gotta have faith

SNOW!

SNOW!

SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!

it was cool. I've never seen such late-night, in-the-streets, shirtless, spontaneous revelry as I saw tonight. But then, of course, I've never been to Mardi Gras.

It'd probably be a good idea for me to get some sleep. Like now. But I have registration in 3 hours and I'm pretty sure that there aren't going to be any classes open, so I'd better start panicking now.

later dudes.

I don't mean to be so strange
but my life just took a change
you're amazing, i'm attracted
but I'm terribly distracted
and I'm trying to be verbal
oh back into this circle
cuz I just found someone special
and that's really something special
if you knew me
nice to meet you anyway
Gavin DeGraw - Anyway

yay for care packages and thanksgiving. boo for chemistry and midterms. also finals. and rap. ewwww rap.

yay for sealab 2021! download it or watch it on adult swim today!

that's what the majority of my winter break is going to consist of. Adult Swim. Nightly. Hoo boy.

can I also get a "yay" for "la creme" yogurt. yes, you, sir, there in the pink hat. oh, no sir, I only meant the peach flavor. I really don't know about the others, although I've tried banana and it is quite tasty as well, but that was a while ago.

I used to have to feed "la creme" to a 2-year-old that I babysat for a lot. you would think that would leave a bad impression. but it really is tasty yogurt.

perhaps I should stop leaving random worthless crap on my blog and get back to the chemistry due in 2 hours? mebbe.

oh and my brother signed with WFU. And there was much rejoicing. check it out.

later, y'all.

it's a picture perfect evening
and I'm staring down the sun
fully loaded
deaf and dumb and done
waiting for sedation to disconnect my head
or any situation where I'm better off than dead

Elliot Smith - Sweet Adeline

wow.

I'd never been to an actual music concert before. I must say, it was AWESOME. Jason Mraz's voice is insanely incredible. I loved everything he played, but was especially impressed by "Curbside Prophet", "You and I Both", and of course "The Remedy." Plus, at one point he broke into this glorious opera singing - it was unlike anything I've ever heard before. Amazing. I think I'm in love. :)

So the concert made my otherwise droll birthday into a memorable evening. I mean, who wants to have two exam-thingies and a wicked cold on your birthday? Better than finals, I guess.

WWU tomorrow, and will return to UW on Saturday. I hope I have everybody's contact info.

why are there so many songs about rainbows
and what's on the other side
rainbows are visions but only illusions
and rainbows have nothing to hide
so we've been told (and some choose to believe)
I know they're wrong (wait and see)
someday we'll find it - the Rainbow Connection
the lovers, the dreamers, and me

who said that every wish would be heard and answered
we wish on the morning star
somebody thought of that and someone believed it
look what it's done so far
what's so amazing that keeps us stargazing?
and what do we think we might see?
someday we'll find it - the Rainbow Connection
the lovers, the dreamers, and me

all of us under its spell
we know that it's probably magic

have you been half-asleep
and have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name
is this the sweet sound that called the young sailors?
the voice might be one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
it's something that I'm s'posed to be
someday we'll find it - the Rainbow Connection
the lovers, the dreamers, and me

Jason Mraz totally covered this song tonight - it was beautiful... *sigh*

time feels gone and wasted. I extended my weekend too much... it's possible to have too much of a good thing when it comes to breaks. okay, well I think it was worth it today, curtailing my studying to hang out with friend and friend's new boyfriend (not sure if they're together yet, but I'm hoping) and the boyfriend's friend, whom he brought with him. Just being around them all was comfortable and fun, making me feel the most at home that I have felt since I've been here. I was tres happy, even if it did mean I had to watch the "Fat Butt and Pancake Head" episode of South Park for what must be the 3rd or 4th time. "Taco taco, taco burrito..."

Am going to Western this weekend. Don't know the exact time of arrival or departure. I will email everyone I can think of and ask them for contact info. Probably won't get around to seeing everybody, but I'd like to try, at any rate.

Can anybody tell me what the 11th thing is in Benson's Superbrain thingy? Here's all i can remember:
1 is the sun
2 are my eyes
3 is a triangle
4 is a stove
5 are my fingers
6 pick up sticks
7 is seven up
8's an octopus
9's a line
10's a hen
11 is fenceposts
12's a dozen eggs
13's a black cat (meow!)
14's a heart
15 is "fifteen minutes of fame!"
16's a driver's license
17's a magazine
18's a vote
19's a remote
20 is 20/20 vision

hokay, so I remembered all of it. Nevermind.

look ma, nothing's gonna change
everything's still remains the same
I can't do what 10 people tell me to do
so I guess I'll remain the same
sittin' here resting my bones
and this loneliness won't leave me alone
two thousand miles I roam
just to make this dock my home
i'm just sittin' on the dock of the bay
watchin' the tide roll away
sittin' on the dock of the bay
wastin' time

Otis Redding - Sittin' on the Dock of the Bay

yay for clubbing! you do get some weirdos there, but for the most part it was a lot of fun. you also get completely sweaty and your feet end up hurting a lot, which sucks but is reality (at least for me). My evening was made when I hooked up one of my friends with someone. He looked SO estatic and thanked me profusely after we left (they exchanged email addresses! yay!). Call me Miss Match.

I also *finally* ran into my 2nd cousin at the club. She goes to my school but we haven't seen each other at all for the whole month we've been here. Funny that we would run into each other downtown instead of on campus. Anyway, we're meeting for lunch today, which makes me happy.

alrighty, chemistry homework time. woot!

Lord, I don't like to see so much pain
so much wasted
and this moment keeps slipping away
and I get so tired
working so hard for our survival
and I look to the time with you
to keep me awake and alive
but all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside
in your eyes
the light, the heat
I am complete
we see the doorway of a thousand churches
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
oh I see the light and the heat
I wanna be that complete
I wanna touch the light, the heat I see
in your eyes

Peter Gabriel - In Your Eyes

so, the weekend. Friday was the most frickin' coolest thing EVER, in that I went to something called a "gypsy party" with some people from McMahon. It was put on by some SPU seniors, which is kinda random... the girls I was with knew them from youth group. So yeah, the theme was gypsy, and about half the people were dressed up, and we ate some tasty rice-and-bean dish and danced to crazy violin and flute music. later we even made our own music, playing drums and fiddles and horns and basses... it was amazing. We made so much noise... i'm surprised we didn't get complaints. The house was on a hill in Freemont and had an amazing view - lights as far as you could see. I wanna live there!

So that was fun. Last night was also good clean fun, going with my seminar group to dinner at an Indian restaurant on the Ave. We were also supposed to go to a play ("The Imaginary Invalid") but dinner ran late. It was good indian food though, something which I'd never tried. The mango lassi could have been better. Later I watched a scary Japanese movie with a guy down the hall, and then got to see a friend who was visiting from WSU. Needless to say, last night was a late one.

Today's plan? So far, I've been reading a novel and eating yogurt. I should probably work on doing something productive, like studying or going to the IMA. Yeah, I think I'll get on to one of those.

I'm excited for Thursday! first concert and a change of age! whoohoo

then the girl in the cafe taps me on the shoulder
i realize five years went by and I'm older
memories smolder, the winter's colder
but that same piano loops over and over and over
the road shines and the rain washes away
the same chinese takeaway selling stuff in a tray
the star curl round, i walk down
same sights same sounds
new beats though
solid concrete under my feet
no surprises, no treats
the world stands still as my mind sloshes round
the washing-up bowl in my crown
my life's been up and down since I walked from that crowd

The Streets - Weak Become Heroes