hokay, just kidding. College isn't so bad. The folks down in T/L are actually quite cool. and I bought a sweater the other night for 9 dollah. fantastic!

mmm sweepy time. I really need to regulate when I go to bed.

here are a few of my current favorite sites:

end of the world

mario twins (hey slade! shiggity shiggity shwa... guess what idiot!)

this one isn't really my fav website, but it certainly is what the double-pumpkin that JFrey and I bought yesterday will *hopefully *l ook like once we're done carving it tomorrow.

happy halloween everybody!

this excerpt doesn't really give the song justice. But I'll post part of it here anyway:

say it ain't so
your drug is a heartbreaker
say it ain't so
my love is a lifetaker

oh yeah Weezer

[to the tune of "Following the Leader"]

boy, how I hate college, hate college, hate college
boy, how I hate college
I think it really sucks.

ate WAY too much today. I feel like I'm going to explode.

Am on my way to church... a 9:30 youth group? who ever heard of such a thing? yay college.

Then a German quiz to study for. The fun never ends around here!

based on your smile
I'm betting all of this might be over soon
but you're bound to win
cuz if I'm betting against you
I think I'd rather lose
but this is all that I have
so please
take what's left of this broken heart and use
please use only what you really need
you know I only have so little so please
mend your broken heart and leave

I know it's not your style
I can tell by the way that you move it's real real soon
but I'm on your side
and I don't wanna be your regret
I'd rather be your cocoon
this is all that you have
so please
let me take what's left of your heart and I will use
I swear I'll use only what I need
I know you only have so little so please
let me mend your broken heart

I love Jack Johnson

weekend of good times. the newest Trojan is quite proud of his new school and the prowess of his football team, both of which are very good. it was nice to see him, even if his clothing was always bragging about USC.

I told myself this week would be the week to get to bed early. Man, I lie to myself.

my baby don't mess around because she loves me so and yes I know for sure
but does she really wanna but can't stand to see me walk out the door
don't try to fight the feeling cuz the thought alone is killng me right now
thank God for mom and dad sticking two together cuz we don't know how
hey ya...
you think you've got it, oh you think you got it, but got it just don't get it til there's nothing at all
we get together, oh we get together but separate's always better when there's feelings involved
if what they say is, "nothing is forever"
then what makes love the exception?
so why-o, I think we're in denial cuz I know we're not happy here

Outkast - Hey Ya

Every day's a good day for breakfast. Even if you're like me, and you make Cream of Wheat every morning, day in and day out, and you alway manage to make a mess in the microwave. Even then. It's good.

I rather like that chatterbox. Weasel weasel! Fantastic.

chem midterm tomorrow. it's late. Should go to bed. but, i've got laundry drying in south tower. plus, hey, not much is going down in the next 12 hours.... just german at 10:30 and then lunch with jfrey, so there will be plenty of time to sleep/study/whatever. I love making up my own hours of operation.

But we used to do experiments where you tested it. We decided to test the Theory of Relativity. Jeff got a torch and stood on his side of the room. Now Jeff, switch the torch on and shout ‘’go,’ and I will time how long it takes to see the light and the speed... Hold on, if you say ‘go,’ that’s speed of sound, and I would hear that after I’ve seen the light, so say ‘go’ slightly earlier, and you time how early you’ve… Oh, it’s a million miles an hour! I said a million billion… no one can tell! No one can run that fast! And mass… can you weigh the torch for the mass, please? Can you weigh it in a vacuum? Can you weigh it near a vacuum, then? You can weigh it near a vacuum cleaner, that’s great! 4.5 fluid ounces… And that is the energy in cat’s per squared ironing board… And so where are the batteries? Wallop, wallop, wallop…” Then you write it all in a project, and you put water on it, dry it off with a hairdryer and give it in. “It’s kind of blurry…” “Oh, it was the rain!”
Eddie Izzard - Definite Article

in daily apparations
we see them working it out
it is a lot to take the stares from everyone
everyone
every day anticipation
will make them both grow strong
and if the needle breaks their backs
then later on, later on
even when they're alone
it's hard to be connected
because when you get that close
it's easy to feel rejected
easy to lose control
easy to lose your grip on this dirt road
the ride is rough and we're on this dirt road
you can't think with just one kiss
it's a long, long way
it's a long, long way
it's a long, long way
to when you first met her

trip home this weekend was cool. machte viel Spass. I'm thinking I'm not going back until thanksgiving, though. I'm really enjoying this independence, and other college-related things, except maybe studying. Also realized that I eat a lot when I'm home - probably because the food there is free for me. but I did have a good time catching Macbeth. It was interpreted very... interestingly. Hmm. But good. And then between riding home with Knot's dad to get to O-Town, seeing Batman's parents at the play, talking on the phone with little Jihad, and then hanging out with Irish boy and Manzanita's little brother at the cast party after the show, it was like I was with my friends - just older and younger versions. Muy creepy. But definitely a good time.

glad to be back, though. Much to do in this new life of mine. A busy week ensues, full of midterms and meetings and chem labs and lectures. german midterm tomorrow. And don't forget Radiohead Fun on Thursday night. that's gonna be one tight laser show.

did I mention I made it into the small a capella group? I'm pumped. I just printed out the first song we're singing (it's a simple arrangement of Dust in the Wind). The other director took off for somewhere so we can't get ahold of any of the music we were supposed to be singing, but that means a shorter rehearsal, so yay, I guess. I'll probably be pretty tired by 7:30 pm tomorrow.

huskies won yesterday! woot! it's about frickin' time. now the question is, how bad is usc going to beat us next week? depressing thought, but realistic.

i got to watch my sister play basketball today at home. man she is getting tall and really starting to do well in sports - she's a fantastic volleyball player as well. I can't wait to watch her playing bball at CHS - just take the reigns and really drive that team to do well. She's got a lot of potential and she does so much stuff - top in her class and all that. she reminds me a lot of myself except pure as all get out. it's the six year age gap. go sweetheart!

brother the first went to oklahoma this weekend for prospective baseball opportunities. I hope it works for him to go out of state...either oklahoma or n. carolina. I think he'd really love it. not that I don't like it here... but a smaller school would be nice. I think I'm growing to like it here though, the school and the city. hope everyone else is doing well.

all around me are familar faces
worn out places, worn out faces
bright and early for the daily races
going nowhere, going nowhere
the tears are filling up their glasses
no expression, no expression
hide my head, I want to drown my sorrow
no tomorrow, no tomorrow
and I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
the dreams in which I'm dying
are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
when people run in circles
it's a very very mad world

Gary Jules - Mad World (from the Donnie Darko soundtrack)

left a message on AIM for most of the day today, explaining my crazy busy schedule. Got 10 messages back. WOW. it was really cool, and I'd tell you why, except that I am tired and must go to bed.

check this out. haha. Canada. yeeaaaah.

I'm joining Unleashed, an acapella group at the U, and everybody should totally listen to some of the recording snippets. Granted, they're not the best sound quality, but it gives you an idea of the repetoire. I'm also trying out for the small group on Friday.

Things to do tomorrow: chem homework, chem quiz, Haunted House debriefing, visit with 182 Dude, get ready to go home for a night this weekend. Speaking of which, I'm hoping to catch "the scottish play" this weekend. Irish boy, you wanna go? Wait, are you IN it? I didn't think so... anyway. I'll call you.

i can't get to sleep
i think about the implications
i've gotten in too deep
and possibly the complications
especially at night
i worry over situations
i know it'll be all right
perhaps it's just imagination

men at work - overkill

I hate the musical "The Newsies". just so there's no confusion. Jeezy creezy, whoever thought of that for a musical?

Should do more homework, I know! why am I blogging?

Tried out for really cool improv group today. If I don't make it (highly probable; lots of talent here), i'm gong to either form a new improv group or see how much interest there is in making a new a capella group. we did one activity involving music, and it seemed that there would be some decent people for pop a capella. and THAT will only be necessary if Unleashed sucks a fat one. Which it probably doesn't; just the recordings do.

it's a long way to when you first met her.

also learned to make paper cranes today. it was tizight, yo. I think I've made a grand total of 4, and am planning to make one before bed and see if I can send it through the mail to Batman.

tomorrow's my hardest day, as far as activities go. wish me luck.

night all.

I should come with a description attached to my forehead, or something. "Smart girl who still has trouble with self-image. Likes to knit, read, procrastinate, and discover things. Has trouble with transitions. Likes to be surrounded with people she knows, or at least recognizes. Obsessed with German but cannot figure out a way to make it relevant to her professional life; actually has no professional life to speak of. Enjoys acting, singing, and doing other artsy things but is only mediocre in all of them. Thinks she knows so much. Has much to learn."

Just add "enjoys long walks on the beach" and some crazy acronym like "WSF N/S", and you've got yourself a personal ad.

my friend assures me, "it's all or nothing"
I am not worried, I am not overly concerned
my friend implores me, "for one time only, make an exception"
I am not worried
wrap her up in a package of lies, send her off to a coconut island
I am not worried, I am not overly concerned
with the status of my emotions though, she says they're changing
we're always changing
it does not bother me to say, "this isn't love
because if you don't want to talk about it then it isn't love
and I guess I'm gonna have to live with that
but I'm sure there's something in the shade of grey or something in between
and I can always change my name if that's what you need"
My friend assures me "it's all or nothing"
but I am not really worried
I am not overly concerned
you try to tell yourself the things you try to tell yourself to make yourself forget
To make yourself forget
I am not worried
"If it's love" she says, "then we're gonna have to think about the consequences"
She can't stop shaking, I can't stop touching her and this time
when kindness falls like rain
it washes her away
and Anna begins to change her mind
"these seconds when I'm shaking leave me shuddering for days" she says
and I'm not ready for this sort of thing
but I'm not gonna break
and I'm not going to worry about it anymore
I'm not gonna bend. And I'm not gonna break and
I'm not gonna worry about it anymore
It seems like I should say "as long as this is love... "
but it's not all that easy so maybe I should just
snap her up in a butterfly net
pin her down on a photograph album
I am not worried
I've done this sort of thing before
but then I start to think about the consequences
because I don't get much sleep in a quiet room and this time
when kindness falls like rain
it washes me away
and Anna begins change my mind
and every time she sneezes I believe it's love
and oh lord, I'm not ready for this sort of thing
she s talking in her sleep, it s keeping me awake
and Anna begins to toss and turn
and every word is nonsense but I understand and oh lord
I'm not ready for this sort of thing
her kindness bangs a gong, it's moving me along
and Anna begins to fade away
It's chasing me away
she disappears
and oh lord
I'm not ready for this sort of thing

Counting Crows - Anna Begins

Interesting weekend. Lots of putzing around and not really doing much. Got my laundry done yesterday, so that was productive. Decided not to go to the football game, which from one perspective is stupid because I had already bought a ticket to it, but on the the other hand, it was rainy and cold, and we lost. To NEVADA. How sad is that?

Went to Value Village Friday afternoon, which was interesting in the sense that we spent about an hour total in travel just to get to Capitol Hill. Probably could have planned that trip better. My bad. But, on the bright side, we didn't have to pay for bus use due to the UPass, and I bought two shirts and two hats for a little over 7 dollars. Not bad, not bad. Sure do have to sift through a lot of junk to find the keepers, though.

Hokay, homework time. Really. I mean it this time. Soooo much chemistry to do.

I never thought you were a fool
but darlin' look at you
you gotta stand up straight
carry your own weight
these tears are going nowhere baby
you've got to get yourself together
you got stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it
don't say that later will be better
now you're stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it

U2 - Stuck in a Moment

i took my love and i took it down
i climbed a mountain and i turned around
and i saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
and a landslide brought me down
oh mirror in the sky, what is love
can the child in my heart rise above
can i sail through the changing ocean tides?
can i handle the seasons of my life?
ooh ooh, i don't know
well i've been 'fraid of changing because i built my life around you
but time makes bolder, children get older
i'm getting older too

Fleetwood Mac - Landslide